So.... starting a blog is more of a mental challenge than anything. How do I start? When do I start? What language do I write in? What the heck do I write about? Yes, these have all been running rampant in my mind for the past few months. I'm so exhausted right now, so we'll see if I make it through my first post.
Today was an emotionally draining day. It consisted of eight hours at the hospital and fear, sadness, happiness, relief, and love. I truly can not believe how tired I am. But all in all, we got the best news we could hope for, My dad will most likely be cancer free because of this procedure. Expecting the worst, I still can't believe it. Seeing my dad in the hospital bed, hooked up in so many places, was made more bearable by the knowledge that he was mostly okay.
Annnnnnnnd I feel asleep mid-post....
One last thing I have to say about the cancer in this post. I can not express in words the emotion I felt in the first few minutes in the hospital room. My grandma and I were the first two to find the room and we had to wait while they moved him into the hospital bed. When we went in, I stood by the window while my grandma talked to him. He could barely talk himself because he was still groggy from the anesthesia and had a tube down his esophagus, but he turned slightly and said, "I love you, Brooke." I instantly traded places with my grandma, held his hand, hugged him, and cried. I can't even think about it now without tearing up and I can't say enough how glad I am that he's going to be okay. He'll be in the hospital for the rest of my spring break, but I am lucky his surgery fell when I could be home. When I first got the news a week and a half ago I wanted to be at home right then and I'm sure I would have tried to get home if it wasn't spring break. Yes, this whole entire emotional roller coaster for our family has gone on for a week and a half and hopefully will be over (minus a little more recovery time) on Friday. Wow! Still keep those positive thoughts flowing, people.
"I love you, too. I'm so glad you're okay!"
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I will be walking as a virtual survivor for my dad and grandma.
Okay, so now, a little bit about why I decided to blog. I am going to the Dominican Republic this summer for five weeks to improve my Spanish and experience the culture. I like to document every detail of my life so that I forget nothing. Usually, Facebook satisfies this urge, along with my incessant picture taking, but I really wanted a more organized way to give all the details. Also, Facebook is a HUGE waste of time! I'm addicted, but I think I will be broken from that addiction this summer. I am already liking blogging better because I like to talk (as is no surprise to anyone) and I can just talk here without having to make it into a cute and snappy Facebook status. Unless I become addicted to blogging and start blogging non-stop, this can only be better, right? Plus, I have to actually go out and do things to blog about, which is very different from just sitting on Facebook.
Odds are, no one will want to read these blog posts, especially if they all are as long as this one. I considered writing something along a theme or writing about something really deep, but I would quickly give up on that. I also considered writing in Spanish so that I could improve my writing skills, bur that would make it difficult for anyone who might want to follow my journeys abroad. I may decide to switch or do both or start a Spanish blog as well, but this is where I am for now.
It was actually sort of my New Year's resolution to start blogging. I had it all set up, figured out what my password was (more effort than it should have been), and prepared to write my first post in the new year... but then, I had some things, that I'm not going to delve into, happen and really didn't want to write about it. So, this is my Everything is Going to be Totally Fine resolution to begin blogging. Today, I officially proclaim that 2012 is not going to suck anymore. Yay for entering the world of Blogger-ers!
